by Mitera Nikkou » Wed Nov 08, 2006 7:55 pm
Mitchell and Katty:
You think it's as easy as it is to just say those things, but it's tough for me to do stuff. For one, I'm already forcing myself to do most of what I do, because it really is that hard for me to do. I have a lot of things working against me: apathy/lethargy; I'm easily distracted; I'm indecisive; my mind wanders aplenty unless I'm doing something interactive (and keeps me engaged), though my mind can still wander; doubting my abilities; doubting that anyone would find it interesting; if it would take too long to complete, a more interesting idea may derail my focus on it and that would be the end of that (I've yet to successfully get back to something and complete it).
And all sorts of stuff. I used to be able to write a full-length novel (at least) a month, but that was before I came to MSF. So, I do captions, because I can complete those in one sitting. And that's what I do... If I'm actually in the mood to make captions (well, my mind doesn't mind, but it often doesn't have the engine behind it to make things happen), I make all of the new captions in one sitting. The only time I had actually done them in more than one sitting, was when I made a batch of fifty. Though it took me two weeks to complete those instead of five days, because many days I just couldn't get myself to do any.
We'll see what happens, though. I've been trying to kick myself into gear for the past two months or so, so I can write this one story that came to mind at that time. I don't know if I'll ever get to it, what with having hundreds of stories in my head that I haven't even tried to write. I probably have half of a dozen stories actually completed, forty of them incomplete, and hundreds still haunting me in my brain. And most of those incomplete stories were from the days where all that I had to do was write, or draw. It's just evil, I tell you.
Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned because only women can give two tits for every tat.
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