Sooo...

[Stellar]

I had a long enjoyable post written out, not half a minute ago. But, as these ephing computers do here at the library, it kicked me off 14 minutes early.

What was I saying? I dunno, I'll write my thoughts down tonight and post them tomorrow since I'm quite upset about loosing everything I typed over the past 20 minutes.



Beyond if you read this could you possibly draw a picture of Stellar smashing a computer in a library? >=) How enjoyable

[Chibi MitchellTF]

That's what .txt files are for. Very useful. Actually, a board I mod has a custom 'computer smash' smiley....Now if only I knew how to link to the smiley...Or, for that matter, how to draw.

[Tiaiel]

We could try and guess what Stellar wanted to say to us ^.^

[Queen Octavia]

You could always just do a bit of interpretive miming instead. Whenever I try to mime someone dies though, because this 13 knights come out of nowheres and do 9999 damage twice in a row...go figure....

[Beyond]

Beyond if you read this could you possibly draw a picture of Stellar smashing a computer in a library? >=) How enjoyable

°3°)b *thumbs up*

[Stellar]

It wouldn't make much of a difference what I was typing in Mitchell... The computers have automated timers and when they expire they close everything opened.


Now then, I remember what I tried saying.

Or do I?

Perhaps.

I fail actually. I didn't write my thoughts down. I've been really busy lately, with nothing really.

Things are happening in my life. I hate reality. Luckily, I've had things to keep my mind in the clouds. Oh how I love the silver lining. Two of those things being the .hack novel series (Do you have the end?), and me getting a DS. I have to say though, FFIII was way too short >.>


Enough of that. This was suppose to be a post about my life, not my hobbies.

Four weeks ago I went to a local doctors office. I shelled out 98 dollars to tell her that I want hormones and that at my old clinic I was nearly to that stage.

Murphy's law predicts, just as what happened, that the Dr. had never handled a TG patient before. So, she wrote me a perscription for a rediculously low dose of Estradiol with one refill and sent me on my way with other clinic/doctor numbers.

Why haven't I mentioned such a great jump in my progress before now?

That's a question that I've been wondering and I suppose I just didn't want to gloat or sound better then others for finally making some progress (even though it is through the wrong means).

Beyond that though, the transdermal medication I received has actually been working. Mind you that is a very big supprise to me since it is only .05 mg a day.

It might be a little to bold to say 'it's working' ... It's more like, progress. The only two major things I've observed about myself is I'm a little more emotional and my chest has begun developing. There've been three times in the past two weeks where I've just felt like crying. I can't explain it, the causes of those feelings would have been inconsequential to me before, but now ... Somber thoughts will just swell and overflow without my rational consent.

It all makes me happy.


A feeling I haven't felt so truely in a long time.



My training to become a shift manager is almost complete. Management has altered slightly in my store. The new GM we have is this awesome middle aged woman.

I dunno. She's certainly something. So, I explained my situation to her. (arg 5 minutes left X_x) It's really awesome how open minded the people here in WA seem compared to everywhere else I've been in the US.


And it was Good.




If only it could last.


Sadly though, getting all of this done has given me little time to make it to the library. So, I'm sorry for being more absent than I've been.

There's also one last thing I have to say, but can't quite type it out in 90 seconds.

[Kumi-chan]

*huggles Stellar* I wish you much luck with your change Stellar. As I said before I do love to rp with you and think you're a great gm thanks for rping with me and Kumi gives you much love.

[Rowan]

Stellar,

I'm new here. I don't know you. But your success, even if limited now, and your happiness, make me happy. I hope, no, I know things will continue to get better for you.

The only part of life we have control over is ourselves. Roll with the punches and you'll perservere. Things can't stay grey forever.

I'd offer a hug right now, but that might be too forward. *Shoots Stellar a thumbs up*

[Stellar]

Hmm. Yep. I'm confused. My happiness has never brought happiness to others. But still, that makes me glad to know that you're happy newcommer =)


Now then. I had more then one thing to add. When I get around to it, which should be right now in my last 8 minutes, I'll share the general conceptions.


#1 Being an adult sucks, yet rocks at the same time.

Why/how? Because of credit. I got approved for a $2300 limit to start lazer hair removal. This was about three weeks ago. Like I said before I've failed to mention such things because I get caught up at how some readers may interpret the sharing of life/change/happiness.

The first appointment I had wasn't too bad. It hurt. And that fails. But I bought some anesthetic lotion to use for my next appointment in June. (Dude, it's like getting stung by a bee 150 times all over your face x_x)

#2 same as above.

Why/how again? Because I'm moving. WOOHOO!

It's friggen awesome I tell you. I'll be within walking distance of work, so I can work whenever they need me, and that will lead to faster promotions. I'm just a week away from being certified as a Shift Manager, and my GM is looking to make me an Assistant in six months.



Is there more?



I've no idea. But I can't sit and contemplate if I have more to share or not since there's only 2 minutes of computer time left -_-

I do plan on getting a new computer and an internet connection within 2 months, so hopefully I won't have to rely on the library anymore.

[Rowan]

"Hmm. Yep. I'm confused. My happiness has never brought happiness to others. But still, that makes me glad to know that you're happy newcommer =) "

I'm like a happiness sponge. When others are happy I'm happier. And I was really, really, bummed out when I read your post.

[Chibi MitchellTF]

Stellar, you need a Tohru Honda!

Unfortunately, Tohru Honda I am not...

[Tiaiel]

Stellar, this is just great ^-^
I hope that the positive progress will go on and on and on...
Keep your happiness in your heart and it will be spread through the world. It'ss just as Capt said: Happiness can be infective.