by Mitera Nikkou » Wed May 02, 2007 6:29 am
I was just wondering since I haven't yet found a point to it. Or, to put it another way, I haven't found any point that I care for. Besides which, you can't talk someone down when they're down already; so, no worries.
For the past three to four months I think I've spent an average of at least twenty hours in my room each day. The living room is a much more comfortable place to sit, but I've rarely had any access to it since our household had two live-ins, since they both had no homes. One of them moved into a new home this past Friday, but I'm still uncomfortable around the other guy. And he likes to watch Westerns, War movies and wrestling...
Add to that the fact that, during this whole time, I have not had the opportunity to get new manga, anime or video games. And then I overwhelmed my poor, pathetic brain with too many activities and am currently trying to wrestle it back into gear so I can focus on getting things done. The activity in the first half of April is the cause for my severe lack of activity in the latter half. Although I don't really think that anyone noticed. Boo!
So, y'know, with lots of time by myself and my disorderly thoughts, I spiraled into existentialism and wondered why I bothered with anything when everything that matters to me is a lost cause. I don't know why I'm still at MSF anymore; it's a bigger challenge for me to be social than most could realize... Well, I don't think that anyone really has an idea either way. I'm just a fish out of water, flopping around aimlessly for my element, wondering if said element even exists. I just don't want to spend the rest of my days suffocating.
Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned because only women can give two tits for every tat.
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