Days of old

[Stellar]

I was done on the computer for today. Honestly. But I was just going through some stuff from years ago, and one thing in particular ... makes me ache enough to need to express it to someone/thing/where.

It's 15 peices of paper. On these papers are printed words. These printed words are an rp I had ... geez.... how long ago was it... in 2001 maybe. I can't beleive how much of a noob I was. My posts are so... simple, but I really miss it. I had so many rps on aol durring that time. I'll never forget the ones with my good friends, Mimiru, Clay, Ayame, Cloud, May, Brandi.

Maybe... It's not so much the rp style that I miss. I just miss them, and all of their quirks and creativity. Clay opened me up to use new locations for rps, not just taverns, cities, and forests. Ayame taught me .... uh... Well lets just say he was something great. Cloud showed me how to fight with style and still be friends in the end XD Mimiru (the rp print out I found was between her and i) showed me how to be random and fun. And Brandi, my best rp friend ever, helped shape everything I know.

It makes my heart ache so much that the only one I still have contact with is Brandi. It would be so awesome if one day any of them signed on... I remember a couple years ago I left my old aol account on 24/7 with an away message telling all of my old friends to im me. I'd definately like to do that again... But I'm sure they all outgrew rping. I mean heck, even Brandi has.

I still have my memories of the good times though. And I have a few of their characters printed out, one day I wanna compile what I remember into maybe a small comic or something.


Arg! I rambled. Anyway, after reading through this old rp, I realized Mimiru was mimiking Mamimi from FLCL. At one point in the rp she glues neko ears to my head and insists on always playing with them, somewhere in here she calls me cheif, and plays the part of the angst schoolgirl who's only happy around one person.


Hmm


I'm not finished actually. There's a person that lingers around MSF now and then that brought the simplistic im rp back to me. It was awkward for me at first... Since Stellar is a fleshed out character with a background, story, and plot that he didn't really know about... So for him, I scraped the idea of sticking to the same character. And just became this nameless girl. It was fun, but it's been at least a year since then. I prefer rping with girls anyway =p besides, i'm too complicated to start a romance rp these days (mainly because I won't use male characters).

It doesn't matter much though. I'll be the same if I do or don't have regular im rps again.

This only started with a few peices of paper after all.

[Stellar]

I still have more to add....

I just looked over my old aol buddy list.

What a bad idea...

Seeing all of those old sns brings back way more then I first remembered. There's one person in particular on my old bl that caught me by suprise. She was one of the best rps I've ever met, but for the life of me I can't remember the name of her character. She would rp with two dragoons at her side, and she went after my darker character, trying to show him happyness and love and all of that mushy stuff -_- But arg! I have no idea what the name of her character was!


It's like an electronic record of my past. But it only shows me enough to remember vauge things.

I have decided. I don't like time, and plan on working on a way to stop it or reverse it. It's continuance is a nusaince to me.

[Raleigh]

Sounds like you are in a similar boat to me. I haven't seen or heard from the people that used to be the bread and butter of my rps for most of the 90's and early on this century too in at least 3 years. Let me know if you find what you are searching for on the stopping or reversal of time. I could use it myself.

Hm.. perhaps some sore of im rp thing should be set up around this place? I know there is one of the chat rooms I think but not everyone ever seems willing to get irc.

[Tala]

I am open to IMRPs anytime I am online. I am on my yahoo messenger the whole time I am on the com. Just send me a im and I will rp with you.

[Stellar]

Yea, I don't really like irc myself >.> And I'm not one to just nab peoples aim name that they have put in their profile... cause... well I dunno. So ya

[Mitera Nikkou]

Heh-heh-heh... Your tale sounds so very similar to mine. I still have my old RPing mailing list at Yahoo where most of my oldest Internet memories lie dormant. I tried to keep in touch with the people in said mailing list but, slowly and surely, I lost touch with them. I've been tempted to look at my mailing list many times, thinking about this or that, but I've only had the nerve to check it one or two times. Maybe I could show it to you sometime. ^_^;

It's the same with my AIM buddy list... I have about 150 or so peoples on it and I ofttimes wish that I had the attention span to communicate with them all at least sometimes. Even the couple of names that approached me as anonymous persons and had something or another to say to me. O.o And there's this one person that seemed to drop from the face of the Earth, and me and Lio have been worried about them. One of my biggest reasons for not using AIM much for the past while, other than for just being depressed and detached, is because I feel that I'm not being friendly enough on it; and for those that contact me, I feel that I'm not living up to my end of the conversation and all that. In the end, whenever I use AIM, I tend to end up looking through the list and wondering about a lot of the people, and to those that are available I have a hard time choosing which of them to contact because I feel like I'm ignoring others if I don't choose them even though I'm aware that I can only focus on so much. I gave it a good run when I first came to MSF, but I'm pretty much out of gas, now.

*Sighs*

Ren & Stimpy: "Memories~..."

[Rowan]

Awww! *Hugs the Cute and Fuzzy One*

It hurts to lose track of people you were close too. *Sighs* People who you were closer to than your own family. Friends who you were sure you'd always be tight with.

Sorry, I think I have a bit of nostalgia in my eye

[Stellar]

That happened to two of my friends (I wasn't all that popular, I think my bl maxed at 100 people once then I trimmed it down to 60 since half of them were little cool chicks that just wanna talk about bubble gum -_- so I stopped accepting new friends and just stuck with the awesome rpers I already knew but enough of this side ramble) Nekkid. Luckily one of them returned a few years ago one of the times I had constant internet access. She said her modem just decided to give out and her family didn't have the money to replace it right then. Better late then never, after all ToxicKirby was one of the coolest people I've ever met (in a sence of people I considder cool).

I still wonder what happened to my other friend though. He was a big dbz fan and knew the entire gt story years before it came to america XD crazy asians as I say, crazy!