by Stellar » Fri Nov 30, 2007 12:03 pm
What can I say, all I do is dream, and I write down awesome ones with as much detail as possible because dreams give me what I need most. Warmth. And being able to re-experience my dreams by reading them is more then enough to make up for the lack of real love in my life.
Allow me to share one of my favorites =)
I was back in high school down in California. It was one of my last days being there because the plans were all set for me to move. There was a girl, and my old friend Cody. Physically in the dream I was a little further transitioned then I am today, so I was happy with myself.
The girl and I seemed to have discussed dating before. I'm not sure how it turned out, but at the beginning of the dream we didn't act like a couple, we were just flirty.
The part of the dream I remember most took place after school. The girl and I passed in the hall and she stopped me, "So, should I call you?" "Yeah, you can call me," I responded as my heart lept but ached at the same time, not wanting to leave her behind. "What should I call you?" she asked with a smile. I was taken back and fumbled through names I've used with various friends. "How about I call you Stellar," she smiled, kissed me and continued on her way. I smile and head on my way.
The dream skipped ahead to me walking out of a classroom with Cody. We made smalltalk as we walked across campus to the multipurpose room. There's a rater cluttered batch of people at the entrance and when I manage to get in I find a corner set up. The girl takes my hand and leads me over to the corner. I start sobbing to myself because, "This is a dream come true." We don't say anything, our feeling are mutual, and it's very comfortable. My last thought in the dream was, "I really have something to stay for."
And that's when I woke up to realize it really was a dream... I eat those emotions like I eat ice cream though! ^_^ You can never have too much.
~Wearing Vintage Misery~