by Marky » Sun Mar 06, 2011 11:01 pm
For those of you that actually read this, I'll let you pass it on.
Things have gotten quite...quite frustrating for me, as of late, on a stance of RP. I waited for a TF for over a month that I had asked for...that just completely wore my patience thin. Now, I'm to the point where, since I've joined two other channels on IRC, I just can't wait to get TFed by some of the people on there...and seeing TFs happen, but none having even remotely having had a chance happening to my character has quite frustrated me, as well. It is selfish to probably want one, but, in a way, I almost feel like an outsider...or maybe just a visitor to the place, unless something actually happens.
Then, there's the part where I don't feel like continuing my storyline lately. Also quite frustrating, as I REALLY want to actually get that finished...or at least this damn part of it, and possibly have another character run around the Muffin Room besides Sam, who can't really do much of anything in new threads because of said TF at the beginning of this. Put my own self in that position, I guess. *headdesk*
Then there's the fact that my creativity has been around the stagnant level for so long...it's become ridiculous. And, on top of that, my drive to post...has diminished to an all-time low.
Then there's the fact that the presence of someone on IRC of late has just kinda rubbed me the wrong way...or the lack thereof, I guess. The MSF IRC room just seems like a ghost town without this one person not appearing sometimes, and the room even just seems...I dunno...out of place to me that this person isn't even doing one of those random little TFs out of the middle of nowhere that I've never heard a complaint about. MSF just doesn't seem like MSF to me anymore there...and I really hope this person is just in some kind of funk like me and returns to being the same as before, but, if that's not the case...I guess times change...
Yeah...I probably left something out, besides the fact that I've got a hellish week coming up right before spring break, and what better time to take off then right then...right?
I highly doubt I'll stay away for the entire week, so don't be surprised if you don't see me online, but don't expect much from me. Also, don't anyone blame themselves for me getting so frustrated or whatever. Things have just kinda built up on stuff that I've been frustrated on, that...I kinda fear if I don't take a break, I might snap like I did last year, and I really don't want something like that to happen again...(and if anyone cares to remember I think I really, actually took at least a week off from stuff, too, afterward)
So, yeah, see you this side of my spring break, I guess...or so.