Say...

[Mitera Nikkou]

Look... I've tried. For almost a decade now, I've tried. I'm weary and prone to bouts of hopelessness. The longer this draws out, the more I realize that it'll take more than myself to get anywhere. And the more that I realize that ('cause, hey, denial can be as good of a deterrant as anything, so I might as well convert it toward optimism), the more I realize that I don't really have a chance, seeing as I've got no outside help. ~.~

[Coruscate]

Well, if you say that, then of course it's not going to happen. You have to be willing to make a change before you can make it. If you go around saying it's impossible, then you'll lose all motivation to even try, and of course you'll just stagnate right where you are. It's a self-fulfilling prophecy.

Guen is absolutely right. I've been running my game for over a decade as well, misery hits now and then (come on you all saw it!) but if you want to reach your end goal you have to pick yourself up the ground and keep moving. Can't reach your goal? What is stopping you? Try to remove it. Or is the lack of something dislalowing you to move forward? Turn the puzzle around all 360 degrees and look at it from as many angles as you can, somewhere there's a solution that will help you out.

[Mitera Nikkou]

*Points to my previous post* ^_^;

[Chibi MitchellTF]

seeing as I've got no outside help. ~.~

You are wrong there. You have people who are willing to help you. They may not be with you physically, but they will be with you in spirit, and can provide you support, if you will let them.

[Mitera Nikkou]

It's not the kind of help that I need. Trust me, if that were what I needed, I wouldn't be in this state right now. ^_^; I mean, I consider many of you to be good peoples (and any of the others as people I don't know). I don't overlook anyone's moral support, and things like that. Even if I do demean myself and stuff. XD Still, even in the non-tangible sense, I don't really fit there, either. So, I look for advice, rather than help... Because, other than knowing that I know of no one that can offer the help that I need (because they can't help in that way), and exhausting my energy looking for that aid, I've run out of ideas. Well, not really... Every once in a while a few more sputter out... -_- Which starts the vicious, tiring, nonsensical cycle all over again. Because I try things, even though I'm aware that they won't work, or work out, or whatever.

[Raijin]

-Walks in and Flexes, she then picks Nikkou up, in chibi form- EEEH! you can do it! -pauses while still holding up Nikkou-........................-very long pause-...........................-blink, and puts Nikkou down and walks out still in chibi mode-

[Mitera Nikkou]

*Blinks*

Was there a reality fart just now? O.o