I don't wanna get personal, but...

[Stellar]

Please don't answer this if it could be used for blackmail, or end up hurting your feelings later on.

Please, also if the discussion somehow gets out of hand, delete it Nekkid, I don't want people to start feeling akward or too uncomfortable from this thread.


Now then with that out of the way let me share why I feel the need to ask. When I talked to my mom a few months ago about transgenderedness and everything, the first thing she asked was, "Are you gay?" That's a resounding no. She can't grasp it though. She fails to understand how I could want to be a girl and still want to be with girls.

It frustrates the hell out of me because that should be the last question on peoples minds. Not that it's any of their business anyway, but what does it matter in the long run anyway? I gave you an answer now drop the subject!

*Takes a breath* sorry >.>

But yeah... Besides that I don't even like sex anymore, I just want to have a cute girl around to share my life with.

[Mitera Nikkou]

While I may pay particular attention to something that's superficially appealing to me, I nevertheless base my actual love for the "mind" and not the body. And I say "mind" because there are all sorts of varying kinds of sentience, either in reality, our imagination, or some other place that exists that we don't know of, may never know of, or we could potentially be thinking about.

For instance, while many probably don't like the Ovalisks, I've always loved them. A part of it is because they're cute and non-sexual, sure, but it's mostly because they do bear some traits that I could only wish to have. For that reason I admire them in light of how some of their other traits cause them to be hated... Someone has to love them for what they are.

I think that people are silly when they base their opinion of love on reproduction. There's a distinct difference between sex for offspring and sex for physical pleasure. And then their are even more distinct reasons for why either courses are pursued. Love is intangible and can't be bound to any one thing, or specific things, therefor I love whatever or whoever I feel that I should love, be it a video game or be they an ogre.

[Rowan]

While I may pay particular attention to something that's superficially appealing to me, I nevertheless base my actual love for the "mind" and not the body. And I say "mind" because there are all sorts of varying kinds of sentience, either in reality, our imagination, or some other place that exists that we don't know of, may never know of, or we could potentially be thinking about.

For instance, while many probably don't like the Ovalisks, I've always loved them. A part of it is because they're cute and non-sexual, sure, but it's mostly because they do bear some traits that I could only wish to have. For that reason I admire them in light of how some of their other traits cause them to be hated... Someone has to love them for what they are.

I think that people are silly when they base their opinion of love on reproduction. There's a distinct difference between sex for offspring and sex for physical pleasure. And then their are even more distinct reasons for why either courses are pursued. Love is intangible and can't be bound to any one thing, or specific things, therefor I love whatever or whoever I feel that I should love, be it a video game or be they an ogre.

Very well said.

[Raijin]

hmm think the question was what do you prefer,

Girls -shrug- I am just attracted to the female figure more xD

[Raleigh]

You don't have an option up for my answer. I prefer nothing, personally. I have yet to meet anything that attracts me in any way.

[Stellar]

I didn't think of that raleigh >.>

[Mitera Nikkou]

So Raleigh can only hate? :O

To me, the only difference from one love to another, is where it's directed and how much is sent in that direction.

[Raleigh]

Don't really hate anything either. I am fairly ambivalent to it all in truth. I tolerate is the best way of putting it.

[Mitera Nikkou]

I see... I wonder if that's what it is for me as well. ._.

[Beyond]

Girls, I like girls.

But then I am a guy, I am attracted to girls, it's natural, hormones and all that biological stuff.

And then, being interested to see what would it be like to be the opposite sex, I call it curiosity, the idea of being able to see both worlds fascinates me. Dunno, better understanding. It's the same when asked about eternity. It's just curiosity.

Ah, but I haven't told anyone. Nobody knows...

[P-tan]

People should be judged on the inside only. *Hugs Stellar* (Posting this with my Wii FYI)

[Anamnesis]

I have to admit that I TRIED to like guys, just to see if I WAS gay, and it cemented the fact that I like girls. HOWEVER, my ideal is that of perfection, but if I have to force myself to like anything other than what I do, it isn't really perfection, is it? *rambles on*

[Gee-chan]

I have never liked guys (masculinity disguts me, hence my periodic self-hatred) and I have never been able to really interect with girls because I am not one of them (though I would give anything to truly change that), I cannot understand how they think as much as I wish it otherwise . Heck if anything the only feeling I have towards girls is envy. This coupled with my 'relational immaturity' (well what do you call it when you have never even considered a relationship of any kind even though you are 16 and everyone else your age is doing everything they can to get a date) means that I am unable to vote on this as I do not seek love.

Sorry to go depressive on you guys but I needed somewhere to openly admit this to someone, probably myself more than anyone.

[Raijin]

Is it wrong not to be interested at all? Just wanna have fun not deal with relationships other then friendship? xD

[Gee-chan]

No it is not wrong for that, that however is not my problem. I am unable to develop even to that level.

There are steps it seem with life and how you react with others:
Early childhood - you meet people
Childhood - you make friends with people
early teens - you start to develop feelings for others
later teens - you start to act and build on those feelings
This is as far as I have been able to observe

My problem is I fell at step 2 and only these last two years started to recover.